Love Me . Love Me Not .
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
mother's day had been good i guess.. my mum had a craving for durian cake..so ta-da! EMI cake's durian cake is no doubt the best.. her fave... for dinner, kangyun cooked for her...we all had salmon chowder, steaks, lambs and baked potatoes with red wine. haha.. also my mum's fave.. everything went smoothly! =)
the day before mday i even had time to meet up with carol after my work...it had been sooo long since we last met. heard a lot about what she said about herself me life... i guess no matter what, carol you would always be the one to stand by all my decisions without a doubt. cheers to our friendship!
well...i guess on the surface things seems to look so good for me. but who really knows whats going on around me..? i am happy..no doubt about this. but it comes with a price to pay. although we have already made this decision, it doesnt mean troubles and quarrells wont come our way. so much obstacles. so much to think about..carefully. is this some kind of "pre-marriage stress" i am going through? i am sure i made the right choice, but i cant help but think of what ifs. finances arent looking too good either.. we didnt really plan to splurge, but just for my mum, my grandparents.. some expenses seem unavoidable. after we spent on everything..it would be just nice. but what if more necessary expenses come our way? hmmm....so much planning. and in future, should i really rent a room from my mum...or should i just rent one outside...haha.. i am thankful i have one year to settle all these. probably i should take a break from all these planning for the moment. wait till we are done with our rom..which is next month. =) so exciting... the only thing which we didnt plan to save on is our wedding bands. we really splurged ok..but it was worth it... the important thing is we both like it... ^_^
if i say i didnt mind people talking, i would be lying. or rather, i thought i didnt mind. well...anyone can say anything... but i really really hate it when the person is my mum. i understand that you care, you said it so many times... but please respect my decisions too...give me support. that would be what i need most now.. i thought we already discussed eveything carefully and now you are saying this. it hurts me to hear such things about the one i love! you shouldnt be bothered with me really. you should concentrate more on sis and that "husband" of hers. i freaking hate him! really... -_-
*made my wish*<3
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