its becoming troublesome to blog. because i am always afraid it might not publish..waste my effort... soo..i have to type in wordpad then copy paste to create post. hmmm...but this a better idea i guess..?my goodness...i have been doing quite a bit of thinking, ramblings..and my conclusion: i have been a very bad girl. my studies are getting worse. i hate to pay attention in class. i either sleep or talk in class. my working attitude is also going down the drain. i dread thursdays and look forward to sundays. i will stay out late..sometimes i dont go home. my mum is concerned and she will ask, but i just attitude her thinking she wont understand. but how can she understand if i dont speak? she is my mum. i feel so guilty. i am sorry.. i wont do that again. i will tell you everything..like how i used to. but i hope you have the time to listen too. lots of sensitive issues. a lot has taken place. bad things. but i think its time i pull up my socks(main thing)..and bring back my positive attitude.it has been 5 months..and it just gets better each day.. he has changed a lot..for the better. all of a sudden he is no longer that workaholic, money-minded, realistic guy but someone who takes into consideration things and people around him, less unfeeling and all of a sudden realised my presence...he included me in his plans for the future and even sought my opinions. althought its still kind of early to talk about things like things. its still better for us to list out all of our obstacles in future..rather than worry when the time comes. he no longer insists i go back with him and that is really one huge load off my mind. i dont like him to state such things so clearly. i mean you will never know what the future brings right? he is becoming more and more of a good boyfirend lately and he makes me feel sooo loved. nobody cares for me like he does. nobody but him listens to me so willingly. it just cant get better.. oh..ok..enough of this. i have been going on and on i didnt realise i said so much. but what i want to say is just: i feel very happy being with him. he is my happiness right now..nothing else. =)i look forward to seeing him tomorrow...*miss you laogong*very much. *made my wish*<39:45 PM
*made my wish*<39:45 PM
