Love Me . Love Me Not .
Monday, October 03, 2005
somehow i'm glad to be back in school... work has been really sucky for me this week. my last day as hskp clerk was the worst day i had since i moved on to rooms.. don't want to go into details. but no manager with the right mind would say things like: you pissed me off, you get it from me, you better do this, you are not fit to stay in hskp, you have big problems, what do you think??, shatec trainee some more etc...... it's like what the hell? what's his stupid problem?! ya, one event i may be at fault..but mind him...i'm a TRAINEE..there to learn from experiences..who is he to insult me and say sarcastic things...threaten me with warning letters. just GO TO HELL lar.. damn pissed off...to make matters worse, most hskp people are all also one kind. can't stand it!!! i really hate hskp......... sad.
yesterday met up with my dear.. twice. haha..before his work and after.. stayed out quite late. well.. he came to look for me after work because i said i was sad i think... but then i was really quite sad.. we already have limited time to spend together.. have to meet up at odd hours.. just lack of quality time..no quantity too. then he told me he is going to transfer to blu restaurant. which means 3-11 everyday.. i wonder how we are even going to spend more time together.. that is the worse shift ever.. for me, it's a no life shift. he doesn't need social life, he meets me whenever he can (meaning no extra hours to work).. how are we going to work this out..? i wonder how the staff at blu deal with their social life.. i didn't say anything though. because it will be a better for him to transfer..he get to learn more..especially fine dining..which he has always wanted.. to him, work is important..meaning a good career. well, he gave me a totally ridiculous suggestion though.. he said why not we move to a rented room together.. oh my god...not possible at all. i want to live with my family... and...the major issue would me..i haven't been together with him long enough to think this way. to me, it's still the beginning.. but for him, he is thinking very very far.. future. i'm like still learning to cope with a bf who spends a lot of time at work...and question is what if he is like that even after he leaves the hotel, and if i were to go back with him..will i be very very lonely? can't blame me for thinking so far.. this is going to happen in a few years...if i'm still with him. well, he doesn't worry about all these. he is just worried i won't go back with him.. he didn't even think about us when accepting the transfer. not that he has to think about us, i mean it's work i know.. but..it just didn't cross his mind. i guess we will just work things out as it comes... no point thinking so much about these things that has no answers yet. maybe one silly thing that should really bother me is his female colleague. i don't like her.. he will ask her to give him morning calls when he is working morning shifts. i really wonder why... can't he wake up on his own??? then she will even sms to apologise if she forgets.. the he will tell her to have a good night etc.. i asked him, saw him sms and everything.. i felt so sour. i don't know why.. it was nothing to him... but it's just very sickening to me.. sighz.. whatever lar.. this not the only thing... guys are all like that. all the same...... numbed.
today lessons started at 2pm..tomorrow going oriental hotel for hotel visit.. not too bad... i can sleep longer... hehe.. i will be sending daddy and mummy off on wednesday... really hope they enjoy their first honeymoon.. ! ok.. i'm going to have to tidy my room now.. it has been a mess for the past half year i don't know why... finally i have the mood.... hee.. =)
*made my wish*<3
9:20 PM
