just came home... went out with my classmates after sch.. ate dimsum at china square then went orchard to window shop.. well, atmosphere was good but food wasnt great.. most tasted like mooncake i dont know why.. anyway, im still so full.. didnt take dinner.. my maths paper was a goner for me, i will fail, i know it already.. did i even study properly? i think my mind just pushed everything away... my mind was a blank during exam... i dont wish for history to repeat.i felt a little better last night after he called me.. our usual chat.. very short one.. just 20 minutes or so.. he asked me if i was happy spending time with my classmates (yesterday i was with my classmates after exam, they were studying).. i didnt reply.. then he said he missed me.. i didnt reply.. so he said he gotta go. i said go ahead. so he said he loved me. i said so what you want me to say? (dont ask me what is wrong with me. i have already said i dont know whats wrong with me soo many times.) then there was silence......... he carried on talking.. he told me he remembered something while working... he was thinkiong about the first time he sent me home.. how we were still friends and were talking about our lives, future and stuff.. then re-remembering the first time he saw me at work... etc. i dont know.. i dont know what to feel. then he told me he really wants to work hard, for his own future..he dont wish to live life simply..he wants to be well off..so he and his partner dont have to work. he doesnt want his partner to suffer work. he said the working world is a cold hard place.. right now is the right time to grab every single opportunity. what should i think? how should i feel..? i dont know..will someone enlighten me on this? i really dont know. then he requested that i say goodnight before i go to bed.. but he forgot to do the same... there is no wrong or right in the way i feel i guess.. maybe im just still so not flexible in my thinking. im just in a confused state. i have never felt this way.. sighz...im gonna spend my day studying for front office ops exam tmr..its gonna be a killer paper i know... sleep on my worries...sleep them away(although i know it wont go away)...but sleeping means im not awake to think....excellent choice! =/ *made my wish*<310:28 PM
*made my wish*<310:28 PM
