Love Me . Love Me Not .
Sunday, August 14, 2005
a lot has happened during e week i didnt blog.. so much so much yet i dont hav e mood to blog cos my com kept disappointing me..by not publishing.. well... one major issue. housekeeping sucks big time!! i hate hskp. i hate e ppl. i hate my job. i hate to clean 15 toilet bowls in a day, on top of that bathtubs, shower rooms, sinks, beds..n vaccum e floor.. its so stressful moving from one room to e other without rest..clean n clean n clean some more.. n tw guests r soo dirty unlike vw. frm 8am to 2pm non-stop..then i became very hungry yet e moment i saw food, i wanna puke! i am not a MAID!! freak u hskp.. after i thought about that issue that day..i told him..he told me to be frank, but i was too straight-forward.. he couldnt sleep e whole nite, e next day we met up, he was frank. he told me to think abt it..continue, or give up.. i hav to be more mature in my thinking n understand things if i choose to continue.. he went restroom, i looked at his hp. it was then i somehow realised all my worries r for nothing. after i told him, he started to sms tis friend of his.. asking him abt things i said. every single thing in detail.. i saw his replies to him too.. it actually bothered him..a lot. how he didnt want to give up.. but for me to be happy..he asked me.. i already had my answer then but i chose to tell him only later... after tis whole thing..things got a lot better. i didnt think so much..he wasnt like what i thought he used to be..he tried to understand me better n hear me say things.. gave in to me in ways he wouldnt in e past.. well... i made tis choice..i wouldnt hav given up so easily. it doesnt matter no one supports my decision, doesnt matter what ppl say... they r not me..they dunno him... yup...its my life...e 5 of us went to e dinner n dance tat day.. quite an impressive one.. many ppl went, they dressed up for e occasion, there were about 6o over tables-9-course chinese set dinner, videos n games.. i went off early though..after 5th course..to meet him.. it ends at 12.30am..gotta work at 8am next day.. haha.. tis is my first time, yea..there will be a second. hee.. i havent been feeling very good lately..my flu made things worse..im ok now though..cos i splurged half of my pay on a mp3 player.. it feels good to papmper myself once in a while.. haha.. but im so broke now... waiting for payday....lol..alright...its sunday today, meaning monday blues tomorrow..! urghh... oh ya, he's finishing work at 5pm..so i gotta go...
*made my wish*<3
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