Love Me . Love Me Not .
Friday, July 01, 2005
30/06/05 was my last day at work.. e day before my colleagues gave me a very pleasant surprise.. my manager ordered a tiramisu cake frm e pastry kitchen, wrote a message on it n lit my favourite pink candle.. i came back frm e restroom n they sang a farewell song to me.. was very touched indeed.... e cake was very nice.. many of us shared it.. made me even sadder to leave e place..! really cant bear to leave.. i really enjoyed working there. on top of tat, i get to see him... many nice things abt e place... well, all good things like tis have to come to an end, move on to my next.... today was my first day of rooms division. we had a training (boring one!) on e rooms n stuff like tat.. then i went back to e line shop during break.. see them n at e same time get my logbook(but it wasnt there)..so i had an excuse to go back again after training n stayed for a while..had some cake mama brought back frm batam.. well, miss working there so soo much! next week gonna start with housekeeping! my god..! starting with...of all places...e public area!! haha... me in green... eww... lol..
i see him everyday... each day.. i like him more n more.. manly cos he is soo unlike those typical singaporean guys.. anyway, tat day..he made me very confused.. he told me he wanted to buy something for his mum n went to choose a necklace.. ya...like any typical drama. we bought it n gave it to me. i was very surprised..but..i cant accept. it cost 105 bucks... i hav never received something so expensive before.. i mean something to wear on myself.. i noe.. to him its like nothing... to all of u its like nothing.. but we hav juz been together for a while. tat is something too expensive to me.. anyway, we decided not to discuss tat issue n went to our usual spot, to hav our usual ice cream... tat was e first day... but tmr.. its gonna be e first time im not gonna see him in 10 days.. i was forced to clear my AL.. tonite he is doing OT..working till 11pm n didnt let me wait for him.. today he made an absurd request.. till now im still pondering.. should i help him.. or should i not.. i mean.. wat makes him trust me soo much.. sighz.. maybe its juz me n my sensitivity again.. but i really pei fu him.. for being able to stand me.. its really hard for me.. to trust someone new.. but im trying.. he has never given up.. i wont.. u ppl may say.. its juz e start of e rship... u never noe.. but u ppl r maybe juz plainly jealous, too concerned or juz pessimistic.. i mean, u ppl think im like stupid to hav given up an almost 3 years, for aomeone whom i may hardly noe.. but if it isnt there, it will never be... no matter how i tried, it didnt come back.. even if there wasnt him, i would him given up on tat.. he is juz a passerby, who juz happened to catch my attention all of a sudden. i hav never taken note of his presence.. so its juz time i give myself a new life.. i am happy juz by seeing him.. e way he smiles at me.. juz make all my troubles at work go away.. i am happy to have him in my life at tis point.. i dun care if its a rite time or not anymore.. i juz wanna cherish e happiness tat i hav now.... miss him lots.......
*made my wish*<3
9:30 PM
