Love Me . Love Me Not .
Saturday, June 18, 2005
hav to go to e chalet later.. dun feel excited anymore.. cos tis may be e last... i dunno yet.. someone? save me from tis misery... im becoming a kind of person i hate soo much!! i could even hardly believe wat i did.. yesterday, he waited for me to finished work. we finished abt e same time.. he wanted to meet, i dunno for wat yet. but i met him..all he said was he wanted to send me home.. its was 11pm! instead we stopped at typ, sat somewhere to chat then walked home about 12.30am!! at my block, we continued to sit around.. yea, my mum called, but i told a lie.. white lie.. he said many things tat made me soo confused. things tat should not be said! he wanted no answer though.. i pretended not to understand.. i went home abt 2.30am. he needs to go to work at 6am.. then why did he not go home n rest instead..? he sms-ed me something more confusing for me... e thing here was tat why didnt i wanna go home..? its soo late already.. why would i rather stay.. i didnt tell him, he was asleep anyway..he will only get angry.. tis is soo not fair to him. i dunno wat is it, but i juz feel tat way... if there wasnt someone new..would i be feeling tis way..? they tell me..be happy. tats most important.. but wat abt past memories, happiness we shared (used to at least), im so used to him, so dependent... its so selfish. its juz me im thinking of... how did i end up in tis abyss of entangled feelings n doubts...!! :/
*made my wish*<3
10:25 AM
