Love Me . Love Me Not .
Monday, June 27, 2005
some things juz cannot be avoided i guess.. wat i say n feel dun really telly.. i dun wish to run away from wat i feel anymore. i dun really noe wat i was doing. but now it seems clearer to me. yes, i am happy. but at e expense of another.. we hav been together for 6 days already.. seeing each other everyday.. lots has taken place within tis 6 days tat made me feel i didnt make e wrong choice. but i still hav my doubts. like any other would.. after all, like wat u ppl say, its juz 6 days. cant tell much.. he did a lot for me. many things juz to show me tat he sincerely wants to be with me. for 7 mths he has never given up, let alone now. im such a brat in tis rship.. forever doubting wat he say n does..typical me. but he has a way with me.. things tat he said made so much sense.. he is like someone i hav alwaz wanted. he is 3 years older, matured in his thinking, has a goal in life, cares deeply for me, always ensuring im alright... rship problems made me lost my appetite.. tat day during work, i had dinner with him. i still couldnt eat. he saw me n didnt eat either.. he had knocked off while i had to work till 11pm. at 10 pm, he smsed me to tell me tat he was at e same old place near my house. i reached there only at 12am. he cooked something for me. something he made himself.. he came up with.. tat was like soo nice of him. today was his off day, but he decided to make a soup for me instead of doing his usual stuff. today's was a total surprise. he does a lot of ot n doesnt give himself off days. but now cos he has me. he not only decided to give himself off day, he even made it a permanent sunday so its e same as mine in future. he talks a lot about e future...many things i dun even dare think about.. soo much has happened in such little time tat i need some time to absorb wats tats happening... i do like him very much.. but guilty? definitely.
*made my wish*<3
11:55 PM
