Love Me . Love Me Not .
Monday, June 20, 2005
im finally home!.. but very sunburnt.. e worst one i hav got since years ago.. how am i going to go work tmr.. feeling soo irritated cos i cant sleep, cant lie, feel so uncomfy in my clothes n urghh...hav to sit up straight..! left sentosa abt 9.30am.. so early.. but i wanna go home le! miss home...! ;)
yea...im such a bad gf.. tis was supposed to be our vacation. but i took tis opportunity... intiated...a break up...on e very first day... yea..he was sad n all... but wat can i say... i juz wan it to be fair to all... but i guess he still wanted a chance.. he let me take a break instead.. he didnt wan to part..yet.. so i guess...yup..distance in time might do some good..? but also might make things more complicated.. i dunno... after tat he take it as it didnt happened n we did usual stuff.. guess wat we caught tis time at siloso? tis old man caught tiny seahorses, squids, a variety of little fishes, crabs..n gave it all to us. there were more than hundreds of fishes in e sea tis time. we even spotted a alomost 30cm long swordfish! lol... my goodness.. so we spent our time separately, catching fishes on e second day.. we set e trend n in less than 15 mins, more than 20 ppl were also catching fishes.. then all of us started comparing n stuff.. very funny... after tat we went sakae to eat, went to our usual spot to chat. went back to sleep n went home e next day.. his mum was calling him already.. so cant really stay anymore.. so here i am.. at home, typing away... thinking about some others things as well... at e chalet, despite his angry protests, i was replying someone else's sms.. ever since tat day, he sms-es me frequently..even today.. i dunno why he keeps contradicting himself..e things he says n does... but wat im saying is, there is nothing wrong in replying a fren's sms rite?...
i dunno wat will come out of tis.. but i guess i really do need time to think things thru.. distance might do us bad.. but i really dunno wat else can we do... i dun feel sad yet. i dunno..maybe i wont noe wat i hav got until i really lose it. or maybe, im juz tired already. i dunno wats e right choice. but i noe continuing tis rship wont bring me happiness. our endless quarrels since we were in different classes, to make things worst, i left sch, started working.. rite now, we cant communicate..he doesnt understand me n my job problems n all, i cant understand tat he is still schooling thus not soo matured in his thinking.. many many issues....
but right now, i dun wan think abt these anymore.. taking a break does not mean im going to look for a new one.. might make things worse.. take things as it comes n go i guess...... :/
*made my wish*<3
3:10 PM
