Love Me . Love Me Not .
Saturday, May 28, 2005
hectic day at work today.. very busy.. buts tats good for me.. at least im not bored. hee... tmr meeting up with him.. then after tat gotta go home early study for e test next day.. eww...cost control. yucks.. next wk is da deadline for da project too.. n we hav not started (doing) tat. haha.. sem ending soon... yet another boring sem ahead.. well... ;P
thinking abt some stuff tat happened at work juz now.. gotta get it off my chest. its abt tat guy... (no, not e one i was babbling on n on abt yesterday) its been like 3 months plus le n tis guy is still asking me out each time he sees me.. i hav rejected him like dunno how many times le.. thought he would go away, but he didnt. today was different. he came to e shop to ask me something.. he asked if i wanna go watch tat jet li movie with him in june.. i said maybe not, not free. he stared at me. then i said see first. he was still asking, i said ok. (thinking maybe i will say im busy later when it really happens cos i juz wanna get back to work!) but he continued to say when our off days coincide(which alwaz does!) he will buy e tix n i muz watch cos its a promise already!! wat can i say? i was stunned.. then he was like so happy, so i didnt hav e heart to turn him down... i might avoid him e next time i see him. but tats soo mean!! i actually said ok... i could hardly believe myself after tat.. its like... arghh... i would love to go... i mean as a fren nothings wrong, but he doesnt noe i hav a bf! tats e main issue. will he still ask me out if he noes im attached? oh, tats so obvious.. ok, i admit.. somtimes(only) i like him to ask me cos it makes me feel i still hav a fren out there, at times i dun like it cos i dunno anthing abt him at all.. other than where he works, n wats his name again...? i didnt forget, but im not sure.. anyway... ok, i confess... i think... maybe only... i think i might....... hAvacRuShOnHiM . . . tats sooo wrong!!! but tats no big deal? it usually goes away soon as long as i dun get to noe e person well enough... really, no big deal... i juz think tat he's juz really cuteee... n i think he oso kinda gd looking, n oso...... which is why i wonder why would he kept pestering me...... does he say e same thing to every gal..? so far, i didnt hear any "ba gua news" abt him yet... oh my gosh... enough.... ok, tis is why i cannot go out with him no matter wat...!! im attached, full stop. dun be tempted. ok, feel soo much better now tat i hav got it off my chest... but still.... e issue is there... i cannot give someone hope than destroy it.... wat to do....? wonder why he has tis "mei li" tat actually makes me ponder...... :/
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*made my wish*<3
7:33 PM
