Love Me . Love Me Not .
Thursday, April 14, 2005
well.. had a tiring day at work today.. but amazing.. it was enjoyable too.. better than attending lessons.. i hate sch.. everything abt it suddenly sux.. i juz dun feel like going sch.. maybe tats why im late so often. juz dun see any motivation or maybe nothing to look forward to.. juz so sucky.. i may be working 7-3 shift everday for tis week, but i woke up so willingly n happily enjoy working.. but today was really very funny.. cos tis colleague of mine. he juz makes me wanna laugh n laugh.. but at mean jokes... lol.. laughing a bit too much today. keke.. but at e same time, its so confusing. think those guys at my work place find me a weirdo? simply cos im not like those other gals.. eww... no way. they juz like to ask me y tis y tat.. oh...shut up. basically those chefs. i cant stand chefs. they r soo eccentric i dun wan understand them. i noe there is no harm making frenz n maybe going out, but i juz dunno them well enough. i dun even try.. i dun wan another misunderstanding. but i shouldnt stereotype. wat should i do? he is really not bad.. as a fren. for e past 2 months he has been asking for my number, saying juz to make friends. but i dunno abt tat.. i see no harm but i dun wan tongues to wag when another misunderstanding comes up.. perhaps its juz purely frenz, but it seems too weird cos all i noe is his name. i dunno how old he is, where he comes from, wat kinda person he is (looks can be deceiving)... so i told him today. i think i dunno u well enough to give u my number. ure like a stranger to me. so he said, then he shall allow me to noe him better first. n give him my number when i feel more open enough towards him..? wats tat supposed to mean? so weird. wat a way to make frenz.. but im juz wary.. not tat i dun wan befriend ppl, juz tat i dunno if there is hidden meanings, which somtimes do. i dunno.. jiao peng you ye yao ne me xiao xin, tai ke xiao le ba.. but i think my main reason is tat im afraid my darling would be unhappy. cos he is asking me out even before i noe much abt him, so u see, how can i go out with a stranger?? lol... i will go out with him maybe in e future (maybe not?), but only if i noe him better.. maybe..? u see, im getting soo rrr abt tis cos i havent been going out with ppl i dun really noe for a long time already.. in e past i can do tat, out of curiousity n fun n wanna make more n more frenz, but now... im not keen in playing such 'games' anymore i guess.. if we r frenz, we r. i dun try to befriend ppl. tats soo not current me. wat do u think..? make more friends..? or leave things n cook up more excuses...? hmph... i dont know.
*made my wish*<3
6:16 PM
