Love Me . Love Me Not .
Thursday, March 24, 2005
i was juz thinking... i hav became so different eversince i started working.. in some way that i didnt even realise until some ppl start to tell me.. im no longer e gullible, keep everything to myself gal anymore. hee.. but ok, now i somehow understand.. here's wat... when im at work, i can be really mean at times. mean towards unproductive ppl, nice only to diligent ppl. i hav learnt to fight for my right, in every single way.. but of cos, not in an offending manner.. juz wan some "justice" done? in school...i look like a wreck? haha.. okok.. during exams n boring lessons maybe.. i will get so stressed up over studying or get so sleepy i forgot how i look.. lol.. when im working on a project, i get really weird mood swings! i juz wan everything perfect.. at lunch or dinner, well.. im juz HuNgRy. At home, im most at peace but sleepy!! u will never catch me sitting up straight.. either slouching on e sofa or curling up in bed! haha.. lastly, when im with my dearest darling.. im juz one spoilt brat. only he can take my nonsense. trust me.. anyone who ever, if u ever hav e chance, observe me when im with him, will juz feel like whacking me up~ cos im very petty, grumpy, whiny, choosy n everything.. hehe.. well.. but tats juz me. love me, or hate me. i dun care.. haha.. ok, one last major thing abt me.. i cannot stand people who stare at me for more than 5 seconds! tis applies to ppl whom i do NOT noe, hav an irritating face, r $7.80 men both young or old, stuff like tat etc.. one day if i really could, i will go up to u kick u in e shin, elbow u in ur abdomen, smack u real hard on both sides of ur face n.. punch u in e eye! haha.. tat sounds so mean.. but tat will be wats tat going thru my head at tat time.. gotta watch where they stare.. i juz dun like ppl looking at me tat way when i did nothing to attract their attention.. hmph.. u r nobody to check me out. e only officially licensed person who can ever do tat is none other than my dearest darling, n only him! wats wrong with those ppl anyway? there is nothing to look.. im like any human, a pair of eyes n ears, a nose n a mouth.. oh ya, another kind.. those who sit too close to me in e mrt or bus. sounds paranoid of me to say all these? but tats wat i feel! im not ur cushion or anyone u noe.. u r not my bf, not even my fren.. so shoo! shoo shoo shoo..! dun even try to pretend to sleep.. hmph!! feel like a crazy gal while im typing all these, but these r day to day issues tat actually bother me.. i wonder why.. but im not being weird.. wat i said make sense.. rite? hehee.. dun answer, tats not a qn.. but one thing tat is very true abt me.. i dun trust guys. as a result, i dun understand them, so i juz detest guys.. i mean those i do not noe.. i dun detest my frenz, do i? frenz, is a very very subjective word ;) okok.. enough of my nonsense.. wanna go take a break.. tired le! hee.. any comments ppl? do let me noe.. =)
*made my wish*<3
8:40 PM
