Love Me . Love Me Not .
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
yup, i really enjoyed myself these few days.. e gathering at jane's chalet was fun.. we chatted for soo long we nearly forgot to go home. haha.. in e end, i caught e last train n e last bus before i finally got home.. tat day was really funny too.. cos it was like i really wanted to meet him, but he couldnt cos he wanted to study. but in e and, i still saw him. by coincidence.. lol.. darling, u can never escape frm me.. hahaha.. then yesterday, i went tcc again with carol.. we chatted a bit n decided to go my dad's ktv.. there was a competition tat day.. so she stayed with me to help out, actually mostly to chat.. hehe.. then it was home swwet home n finally, my most dreaded today came. sighz.. gotta go back work tmr!! 7am.. how am i going to wake up..? manz.. i hate work.. (today)
*made my wish*<3
3:07 PM
Saturday, March 26, 2005
ya, i daydream a lot. both realistic n fictious stuff.. n nope, no secrets abt tat.. hee.. a few tat will alwaz come to my mind.. first, travel.. cos i really really love to travel.. i would love a job tat enables me to travel all over e world.. not e air stewardess type, but those whereby i can see e many different cultures of ppl.. its not juz abt work, i would also want to travel to many different countries.. mainly for their cool weather, nice scenery, friendly ppl, unique houses n buildings, breath-taking nite sky! (all those stars that i saw from a hill-top hotel at queensland, nz.. they make me feel so high. hehe.. these r wat i call STARS), those serene lakes, big sparkly rainbows, huge (not man-made) waterfall, thrilling rapids (so i can go white water rafting again.. something i cant do in sg. sad..), animal farms (esp those full of cows, sheep, goats, dogs n rabbits.. makes me go awww... all e time), orchard farms (where i get to see those apples growing on e tree!)... minimal shopping trip. cos tat does not appeal to me, n may even bore me... unless its like e kind where its ermm...e ppl make, n sell stuff they made.. sooo much abt travel.. see, tats wat kept my mind busy.. i dun stone for nothing. next.. i dream abt my life in e future.. i mean.. my wedding, my gown, my home, my family after tat.. how will it be like, how i would like it.. most importantly, waking up to find my darling next to me everyday.. hee... tat isnt something too far..? i hav alwaz thought.. i would only be willing to leave tis world after i hav fulfilled e above.. haha.. juz some silly thoughts. so far, r these realistic or non-realistic dreams? well.. no one can predict e future. these r not all.. i daydream abt other stuff too.. like wat would i do if i were tis person, tat person.. mainly in movies, imagine wat would i do if i were her n stuff.. or if i were to study overseas one day, how would my lifestyle change.. even things like, wat shall i eat next week when i go out with so n so, mainly my darling.. cos i dun go out much with anyone else. hee.. so much so much more... but i shall stop here.. -end-
*made my wish*<3
4:15 PM
Subject: No offense to the guys!
Date: Fri, 11 Mar 2005 09:51:41 +0800
Men Are Hard To Pleased
The problems with GUYS:
If u TREAT him nicely, he says u are IN LOVE with him;(My goodness!!)
If u don't, he says u are PROUD.
If u DRESS Nicely, he says u are trying to LURE him;
If u don't, he says u are from KAMPUNG.
If u ARGUE with him, he says u are STUBBORN;
If u keep QUIET, he says u have no BRAINS.
If u are SMARTER than him, he'll lose FACE;
If he's Smarter than u, he is GREAT.
If u don't Love him, he tries to POSSESS u;
If u Love him, he will try to LEAVE u.(very true huh?)
If u don't make love with him., he says u don't Love him;
If u do he says u are CHEAP.
If u tell him your PROBLEM, he says u are TROUBLESOME;
If u don't, he says that u don't TRUST him.
If u SCOLD him, u are like a NANNY to him;
If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u. (Bullshit!)
If u BREAK your PROMISE, u Cannot be TRUSTED;
If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.
If u SMOKE, u are BAD girl;
If he SMOKES, he is a GENTLEMEN.
If u do WELL in your exams, he says it's LUCK;
If he does WELL, it's BRAINS.
If u HURT him, u are CRUEL;
If he HURTS u, u are too !!SENSITIVE!!
& sooo hard to please!!!
If u send this to guys, they will swear that it's not true.......
but if u don't, they say u are selfish.....
The moral of the story is.......SEND THIS TO GUYS OUT THERE ANYWAY...
Send it to girls also, gives them some laughter.
*made my wish*<3
2:05 PM
i should hav expected it to be crowded at sentosa yesterday.. but even so, it was even more crowded than juz crowded.. e bus tat goes into sentosa.. oh my gosh..e queue.. i got there at 11.30am.. if i had joined e queue, i would hav to reach e beach at only 1pm earliest! soo..we took a cab. hee.. it costs us only $4 to go all e way in to palawan beach. reasonable rite? only an additional $1 each for us.. palawan was not crowded.. BUT e restrooms r closed for renovations!! soo.. we walked to siloso which was very crowded. a funny thing happened though.. while we were busy applying some sunblock lotion, e ants near e tree all came towards us n invaded our bottle of apple tea.. haha.. so i decided to lure them all away by pouring e whole bottle of tea near e tree n so they will never disturb us again.. keke.. e so not fun part came when it was time to go.. meaning: time to bathe. it was a queue of 20 female in front of me!! i wanted to bathe in tat open area initially, but i juz couldnt bring myself to do tat. sighz.. i dun wan >20 pair of eyes watching me while i bathe!! they were like all so nosy. observing ppl bathe in tat open area.. so i waited a slow n torturous 1.5 hrs before it was finally my turn.. phew! when i came out, e bath area was like swamped with sandy ppl.. eww.. haha.. after tat, i went to dad's ktv then supper after tat.. i had nice fish & chips at a foodstall managed by a shatec graduate.. my parents r regulars there.. then it was home sweet home.. =)
*made my wish*<3
12:40 PM
Thursday, March 24, 2005
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing,
Watch you smile while you are sleeping,
While you are far away and dreaming,
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender,
I could stay lost in this moment forever,
Where a moment spent with you is a moment I treasure,
(Chorus)
I don't want to close my eyes,
I don't want to fall asleep,
Cause I miss you baby,
And I don't want to miss a thing,
Cause even when I dream of you,
the sweetest dream will never do,
I still miss you baby
and I don't want to miss a thing
Lying close to you feeling your heart beating,
And I wondering what you are dreaming,
Wondering if it's me you are seeing,
Then I kiss your eyes and thank god we're together,
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
and forever forever
(Chorus)
And I don't want to miss one smile,
I don't want to miss one kiss,
I just want to be with you right here with you,
Just like this,
I just want to hold you close,
I feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment,
For all of the rest of time
(Chorus)
*made my wish*<3
9:29 PM
i was juz thinking... i hav became so different eversince i started working.. in some way that i didnt even realise until some ppl start to tell me.. im no longer e gullible, keep everything to myself gal anymore. hee.. but ok, now i somehow understand.. here's wat... when im at work, i can be really mean at times. mean towards unproductive ppl, nice only to diligent ppl. i hav learnt to fight for my right, in every single way.. but of cos, not in an offending manner.. juz wan some "justice" done? in school...i look like a wreck? haha.. okok.. during exams n boring lessons maybe.. i will get so stressed up over studying or get so sleepy i forgot how i look.. lol.. when im working on a project, i get really weird mood swings! i juz wan everything perfect.. at lunch or dinner, well.. im juz HuNgRy. At home, im most at peace but sleepy!! u will never catch me sitting up straight.. either slouching on e sofa or curling up in bed! haha.. lastly, when im with my dearest darling.. im juz one spoilt brat. only he can take my nonsense. trust me.. anyone who ever, if u ever hav e chance, observe me when im with him, will juz feel like whacking me up~ cos im very petty, grumpy, whiny, choosy n everything.. hehe.. well.. but tats juz me. love me, or hate me. i dun care.. haha.. ok, one last major thing abt me.. i cannot stand people who stare at me for more than 5 seconds! tis applies to ppl whom i do NOT noe, hav an irritating face, r $7.80 men both young or old, stuff like tat etc.. one day if i really could, i will go up to u kick u in e shin, elbow u in ur abdomen, smack u real hard on both sides of ur face n.. punch u in e eye! haha.. tat sounds so mean.. but tat will be wats tat going thru my head at tat time.. gotta watch where they stare.. i juz dun like ppl looking at me tat way when i did nothing to attract their attention.. hmph.. u r nobody to check me out. e only officially licensed person who can ever do tat is none other than my dearest darling, n only him! wats wrong with those ppl anyway? there is nothing to look.. im like any human, a pair of eyes n ears, a nose n a mouth.. oh ya, another kind.. those who sit too close to me in e mrt or bus. sounds paranoid of me to say all these? but tats wat i feel! im not ur cushion or anyone u noe.. u r not my bf, not even my fren.. so shoo! shoo shoo shoo..! dun even try to pretend to sleep.. hmph!! feel like a crazy gal while im typing all these, but these r day to day issues tat actually bother me.. i wonder why.. but im not being weird.. wat i said make sense.. rite? hehee.. dun answer, tats not a qn.. but one thing tat is very true abt me.. i dun trust guys. as a result, i dun understand them, so i juz detest guys.. i mean those i do not noe.. i dun detest my frenz, do i? frenz, is a very very subjective word ;) okok.. enough of my nonsense.. wanna go take a break.. tired le! hee.. any comments ppl? do let me noe.. =)
*made my wish*<3
8:40 PM
my exams r over.. haha.. im going to make full use of tis break..to enjoy!! i hav carefully planned out my break already.. hee.. here goes~ tmr i will be going to sentosa with my dearest, sunday im going to meet up with my MI frenz at her chalet, saturday im gonna finish up my poc project, monday im going out with carol, tuesday im meeting my dearest for lunch.. & wednesday..well... back to work. at least i got to enjoy a bit..? hee... a good time to relax, do some self reflection. hee.. dun be mistaken, i havent been bad.. juz like to reflect on myself.. for e fun of it only.. keke.. hope i dun get sunburnt tmr.. please... *prays*
*made my wish*<3
7:48 PM
Sunday, March 20, 2005
exams r 2 days from today.. well.. at last.. cos when im having exams, i get e whole week off.. frm work n lessons.. hehe.. plus i took annual leave on sat n my off is today.. then my manager gave me mon off n tues annual leave.. which is like.. soo many days. hehe.. but tat week, i hav to work a full week.. wed to sun.. hmmm... didnt go work on fri.. cos i woke up at 7am when im supposed to start work at 7am! oh dear.. but anyway, i wasnt feeling good during tat time.. kinda sick when im working.. cant work properly. so i went to see a doc, to at e same time get mc.. n noe wat? e doc said im suffering mild malnutrition?? lol.. maybe.. havent been eating well lately i guess.. so got some vitamins n stuff.. but...im not eating them. i dun swallow pills.. i chew.. n they r too big for me to chew. hee.. anyway it was good i didnt hav to work.. my darling planned to stay overnite at my hse on fri.. so we went esplanade to rent dvds n watched it all nite long.. then we woke up early e next morning, had bfast at mac n went grocery shopping for dinner tat evening.. i was e one cooking, not him. he couldnt even help me.. haha.. kk.. anyway, im going to start studing tmr.. too sleepy.. feeling very sleepy lately.. no matter how much i slept... yawnz... -_- zZzz..
*made my wish*<3
6:50 PM
Sunday, March 13, 2005
i miss my daring... cos he's at bintan rite now... stupid MI.. stupid sch.. organise wat stupid trip.. hmph.. its not as if im still in there.. its really ironic.. u noe, if i were to stay on in tat sch in stead of quitting last yr, i would hav been in e same class as my dear again tis year.. sobz.. anyway, tat sch.. no future for me.. not interested.. anyway, he went on tis sch trip yesterday morning.. will be coming back only on monday nite.. he has never left me alone for soo long before.. i was alwaz e one who travels, not him.. he has never been out of sg alone since we got together.. e last time we went overseas was during our 1st anniversary. we went genting highlands. with my family. really miss tat trip a lot.. (;_;) anyway.. im juz worried abt him.. hope he takes real good care of himself there.. i juz dun feel safe.. cos of other factors too.. like those bitches.. who dunno how to behave.. even if i trust him, i dun trust them. they alwaz act like a ... i will never forget how they hurt our rship in e past. n him.. he juz dunno wat to do n only said dunno... sighz.. im not being soo wat or watever.. its juz tat.. sighz... anyway.. i miss him a lot a lot... :/
*made my wish*<3
2:23 PM
finally my bqt project is done! so happy.. but sighz.. my presentation is tmr..! 1.5 hrs.. why do we need so much time? anyway, not worried lar.. cant believe i actually devoted all of my time to e project n its only now tat im finaallyy freee... anyway, last week was my first week in room service, n i really enjoyed working there.. it was fun, juz like bqt.. but in another way.. im not insane, but i jus like e fun of sending e food to my guest n at same time, see how e room looks like.. haha.. im not mad.. many rooms made me go "wow.. shang..."! cos u see.. sometimes, we go in expecting to see a deluxe room, but it turns out to be a suite.. with a living room, dining room n bedroom.. but e most attractive one would be e serviced apartments n residences. it looks juz like a condo with e 3 bedroom, swimming pool n all.. e residences r even more elegant, real homely. really amazed me.. hee.. room service is fun, depite e 7-3 shift.. anyway, e hotel new restaurant is opening soon.. on 16 mar i think.. called the line.. anyway, i went there on thu for food tasting. its buffet style, really modern n comfy.. e dessert station is soo attractive. with a chocolate fountain. hee.. sighz.. i miss my darling.......
*made my wish*<3
2:07 PM
