Love Me . Love Me Not .
Sunday, January 16, 2005
had a tiff with him earlier tis afternoon after lunch, abt 1.30pm, at my house. tis is e 2nd time such a thing happened.. e first time i nearly ended it once and for all if not for my friends. juz feel i cant trust him anymore.. used to trust a little, now not anymore.. well, i juz dont trust guys. my whole life up till now i hav never ever trusted a single guy about things they say (esp when it comes to relationships). all guys r born liars.. (to be crude) forgetful or 'blur'.. (a nicer term, but an excuse to me) i dont know. maybe some good guys, if any should juz come up to me and explain. r all of u juz so ignorant of things that r happening around u or all of u juz enjoy lying to gals? i used to think i hav one of e greatest guy on earth, but i guess i was juz so wrong. nobody is perfect i know.. but why is it always in tis same area..? is it by nature? or is it on purpose? perhaps guys and gals r meant to be different? gee, i sound so serious... BUT, it may be a small matter to some of u, but its NOT a small matter to me. maybe im petty, but isnt tis basics? trust? i hav been trying so hard to earn trust from guys, but none of them could give tat trust. now that i thought i hav found tis someone whom i can somehow trust, he breaks my trust time and again and again.. all i wan is for someone to love me wholeheartedly, be true to me about everything, EVERYTHING. wats so difficult? it makes me so sad. it makes me feel so pathetic. im heartbroken. maybe like wat some ppl say, a relationship at tis age is juz like a game, never take it too seriously.. maybe... =(
*made my wish*<3
9:45 PM
