Love Me . Love Me Not .
Thursday, January 27, 2005
well.. when i was in rose veranda, i cried oNCe.. cos e pantry job juz drove me crazy. in BLU bar, it was e same.. i washed those glasses till i cant take it anymore & broke down. in banquet, juz when i thought nothing will make me cry, everything was fine, ppl there were nice & all.. i was so wrong. finally, i cried today. after 3 months.. sounds like something expected huh? but it wasnt the pantry. it was someone.. who was being too harsh on me. and like i said. recently im not in e mood for sarcasm or anything more. i juz wanted to be left alone. but.. sighz.. its over.. am i a crybaby? no i am not! i juz cry easily tats all.. after i cry, im back to normal! ;) it was so tough for me to fight my tears back juz now. i was actually tearing n serving e guests at e same time. hoping nobody notices.. but i couldnt help it.. e moment i got a chance to be away from guests, i couldnt control anymore. someone came up to me n asked, r u ok? tat was it. i juz cried n couldnt stop no matter how i tried... im not sad to tat extent, i juz held back too long tats all. i dun wan him to see me cry! i dun wan anyone to see me cry! its so embarassing! i even hav to choose a right time, right spot to cry! arghh.. i feel so pathetic.. dun wanna think abt it anymore..! hope tmr turns out better for me?
*made my wish*<3
11:45 PM
