My banquet project going to drive me cRaZy..!! :/

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Sunday, January 30, 2005

today, carol brought me to e TCC at boat quay. wat a nice place! there were 2 storeys n we sat on bean bags, not chairs. in e end we stayed there for hours chatting away.. lol.. nice ;) then i went to dad's ktv, sang some songs n went home for supper =) supper is ok now cos i lost my 2kg already. haha.. sleepy le.. *yawnz* nitenite.. gotta go back sch tmr...

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Friday, January 28, 2005

**! yEnOh yM sSiM i**

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...wait a minute! nope, tat was not e first time i (;_;). suddenly remembered... e first was when tis silly guy..he crashed his overtray on my foot! ouch!.. but i didnt really cry. nah... it juz hurts tats all.. i can still laugh at tat time.. hee.. ;)

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Thursday, January 27, 2005

well.. when i was in rose veranda, i cried oNCe.. cos e pantry job juz drove me crazy. in BLU bar, it was e same.. i washed those glasses till i cant take it anymore & broke down. in banquet, juz when i thought nothing will make me cry, everything was fine, ppl there were nice & all.. i was so wrong. finally, i cried today. after 3 months.. sounds like something expected huh? but it wasnt the pantry. it was someone.. who was being too harsh on me. and like i said. recently im not in e mood for sarcasm or anything more. i juz wanted to be left alone. but.. sighz.. its over.. am i a crybaby? no i am not! i juz cry easily tats all.. after i cry, im back to normal! ;) it was so tough for me to fight my tears back juz now. i was actually tearing n serving e guests at e same time. hoping nobody notices.. but i couldnt help it.. e moment i got a chance to be away from guests, i couldnt control anymore. someone came up to me n asked, r u ok? tat was it. i juz cried n couldnt stop no matter how i tried... im not sad to tat extent, i juz held back too long tats all. i dun wan him to see me cry! i dun wan anyone to see me cry! its so embarassing! i even hav to choose a right time, right spot to cry! arghh.. i feel so pathetic.. dun wanna think abt it anymore..! hope tmr turns out better for me?

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11:45 PM

projects.. i never liked projects. didnt have a peaceful discussion today.. well.. guess we were all juz too eager to complete it. a mth to deadline.. how can we not panic.. sighz.. in e end left me n sophie.. we sat in burger king till nearly 8pm juz to finish up one pathetic survey.. so tired when i got home.. bukit batok to bishan is no fun! well.. juz hope to get over n done with soon... tmr going back work.. but im only working frm 12 to 1.30pm.. haha.. cos going for tat shiseido grooming course at 1.30pm. yay..! hmm...going out with carol tis sunday.. havent seen my part-time gf for a long long time le! haha.. okok.. i will be busy working e next few days.. feeling sleepy already.. going to bed now......

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Tuesday, January 25, 2005

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9:00 PM

boring journey to sch. boring lessons in sch. boring lunchtime. boring journey home. boring programmes on tv! doing boring projects right now... banquet.. principles of comm.. yikes.. not tat i wan my life to be tis way today, but today juz aint a good day for me. time of e mth.. feeling grumpy.. took it out on my friends.. sorry..? i juz dun feel good.. hmmm... dun hate me? but i really wonder.. why r some guys juz so !!! i thought it was only my bf who will make me feel tis way. well..well... i was surprised at myself when other guys irritated me the same way too. they r juz soo insensitive. they juz dun care abt my feelings.. yea, it seems like a joke to u.. but to me, u r being sooo sarcastic! dun like u! hmph!.. made me so angry juz now.. okok.. im at fault too.. but u... im juz not in e mood for jokes or sarcasm right now alright..? -_- zZzz..

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Monday, January 24, 2005

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1:38 AM

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1:10 AM

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11:45 PM

went out with him today. well, things r better. but i still feel kinda..arghh..watever. we went for a haircut together, then to orchard to continue our cny shopping. think im spending nearly all of my allowance on it. haha.. i dont wanna work on 2nd n 3rd day of cny!! hopefully... i received a "mystery" call tis morning, at abt 1.30am!! called my hp twice n my house once.. i thought who.. so irritated.. so i called back.. turn out to be 'mil nivlek'!! oh my gosh.. its been like 5 years n i juz cant get him outta my life..! racking up e past each time he calls.. honestly, at tat point in time, i had already forgotten his voice n wat i had to do with him....until he repeated e story to me all over again.. tat reminds me.. he dumped me at suntec city all alone, juz to watch tat A1 concert all by himself!! wat kinda "bf" is tat? ok, we r not even considered tat.. not to me... i mean.. at tat age, i didnt noe wat a rship was all abt.. nah, watever.. anyway, next mth is his 20th bday, n he is inviting me to his bday party at a chalet.. but its like...weird! i havent seen him for 4 years n i do not wish to anyway.. not cos of our weird rship, but cos of wat happened 4 years ago.. he was really bad to me. *secret: i used to keep a diary* so how can i forget all tat has happened in my life since i was 13. i stopped writing after i was together with my darling.. so events before tat, all recorded. lol.. scary? well.. things seem to happen so fast when i was 15 to 17. n all of a sudden, im 19 already.. tis yr 20! which means i hav been together with him for almost 2.5 years. for these past 2.5 yrs, e only other guy i went out with is 'd' n only once! n he brought me to meet 'd' cos he wanted to see who i was going out with. so i guess he kinda freaked out too cos we went out till too late n... so, my last good guy friend was gone juz like tat.. oh, not yet.. "..." kinda pathetic actually.. not tat i need a gd guyfriend. i let things be. wat i mean is, he will never understand its ok to hav good guyfriends. tis is kinda unhealthy for our rship if each other is all we hav? i dunno... maybe someday i will noe... =)

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Saturday, January 22, 2005

No more bad headings. well.. quarrelled with him again. juz before i went work. i stormed into shang without even turning back to look at him. sad..? of cos i am. but i dunno... things between us r juz not going right. but he dont even seem to care. we r juz so different. our lifestyles, character, thinking, taste, everything..so totally different. sighz.. makes me wonder.. is he really e right guy for me...? im not being a bad gf, thinking tis way or watsoever. its juz tat i juz feel other ppl care for me more than he do. im so confused... dont wanna feel tis way......

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Tuesday, January 18, 2005

usual day at school.. boring poc class.. put me to sleep. zZz... tmr is wed, then comes thurs again! oh no.. back to work.. again..! hmmph... i have been really sinful lately! arrgh.. why? it all started in dec.. first my bday, then xmas day, new year's day, his bday!! all these special occasions r at fault! we ate too much chocolate, ice-cream, cakes and all sort of desserts without realising it until tat fateful moment juz now! i went to weigh myself, and i hav put on 2kg!! ahhh..! oh no! tis is really oh no..!! from 4* to 4*!! can u believe it? in juz one mth..! i wanna get those burden off me by chinese new year!! i dont care if its obvious or not, i juz dont want to see tat figure on e weighing machine! is it obvious i hav put on?? is it obvious??? oh no..!! sob... not only me.. him too.. he put on 4kg! haha... 4 kg..? i hope tat does not happen to me! *prays hard* from tmr onwards, im going to go on a diet..! hEe.. on top of tat he promised to go swimming with me! and we r going to take lots of walk, more than usual! definitely.. i dont wanna see tat weight again! sinful me.. no more chocolates and all those sinful stuff...for e next few mths? hehe.. ;)

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Monday, January 17, 2005

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Your Power Color Is Blue Relationships and feelngs are the most important things to you.You are empathetic and accepting - and good at avoiding conflict.If someone close to you is in pain, it makes you hurt as well.You try to heal the ones you love with your kind and open heart. What's Your Power Color? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

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11:37 PM

my bunny mojo was taken away frm me permanently earlier tis afternoon.. she wasnt feeling well yesterday, loss of appetite n looked so listless.. so juz now my mum made a 2pm appointment with e vet.. but my mum sms me at 1pm with tis bad news.. a little too late.. poor mojo! suddenly my house feel so empty without her.. i used to feel irritated whenever she disturbs me, but now... i juz miss her.. should i let him know too? maybe i should wait.. wait till he calls me again.. sighz.. wat a way to start my new blog.. but things r juz not going too well for me lately i guess.. it will get better =) had such a sleepy day at school.. bqt op n maths.. how can these 2 subjects be interesting? i hate maths! hEhe.. tat irritating guy.. sms me again.. for e 101th time! i am not interested n do not wish to go out with u at all! i dread going work in e past cos i dread seeing u!! now tat i hav moved on to service, will u pls give me some peace? i dont like u. i really dont like u! n i will never like u!! im racist! arghh..! if only i could tell him tat... i hate to break ppl's heart.. a nope, not free was all i said.. how lame.. well.. kinda moody recently.. ppl juz leave me alone for e time being ba... promise i will cheer up by tis week.. :/

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Sunday, January 16, 2005

had a tiff with him earlier tis afternoon after lunch, abt 1.30pm, at my house. tis is e 2nd time such a thing happened.. e first time i nearly ended it once and for all if not for my friends. juz feel i cant trust him anymore.. used to trust a little, now not anymore.. well, i juz dont trust guys. my whole life up till now i hav never ever trusted a single guy about things they say (esp when it comes to relationships). all guys r born liars.. (to be crude) forgetful or 'blur'.. (a nicer term, but an excuse to me) i dont know. maybe some good guys, if any should juz come up to me and explain. r all of u juz so ignorant of things that r happening around u or all of u juz enjoy lying to gals? i used to think i hav one of e greatest guy on earth, but i guess i was juz so wrong. nobody is perfect i know.. but why is it always in tis same area..? is it by nature? or is it on purpose? perhaps guys and gals r meant to be different? gee, i sound so serious... BUT, it may be a small matter to some of u, but its NOT a small matter to me. maybe im petty, but isnt tis basics? trust? i hav been trying so hard to earn trust from guys, but none of them could give tat trust. now that i thought i hav found tis someone whom i can somehow trust, he breaks my trust time and again and again.. all i wan is for someone to love me wholeheartedly, be true to me about everything, EVERYTHING. wats so difficult? it makes me so sad. it makes me feel so pathetic. im heartbroken. maybe like wat some ppl say, a relationship at tis age is juz like a game, never take it too seriously.. maybe... =(

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9:45 PM

hApPy 2005..! tis my new blog for e new year.. dumped my old ugly blog! haha.. but i cant blog regularly though.. anyway, i juz came back. went out with my darling to do some CNY shopping. gotta go back school tmr.. here goes my another off day for e week.. maybe i should clear my annual leave & PH for next week soon.. wanna take a break..again.. hEe.. =)

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